mathebehosehness

昨天被问到有关summation and infinite series的题目，看到summation的符号时直接束手无策，又让我感受到SAM的数学真的chinbeh的问题...

记得有一次，那是sem2的事情了，在common room时有个non-jpa的AUP student问沈先生calculus 1 的 inequality题目（我想就连沈氏现在也不记得这件事了）。当时在场的我也被拉去看看，怎知那个人不知从哪儿打听我是SAM student，就直接一句“eh,SAM students会数学的meh?"wahlao,当时还真是生平首次当面数学被挑战到,他***,老子就算没拿 calculus 1 也还不至于被inequality难倒吧?

不过说到底，我不怪罪那人这么藐视SAM;只能说自己的course不争气。Yes,no doubt we are doing mathematics,we are solving problems,but we are not feeling it!!There are a lot of things which are not covered in the so-called syllabi,才问多一点点就out of syllabus,zz...有太多基本的mathematical skills从课程纲要删除,所学的真的纯属superficial的皮毛。打从SAM的第一天，就再也无法 derive satisfaction from learning & solving maths.There are so many questions from college basic mathematics textbooks that you cant even fathom the symbols at all,all because you just haven't got the chance to learn it in your course,it just makes you to wonder if you are really learning maths at all.

So what if got 20 for double math?It doesn't at all prove our mathematical competence;to me,a 20 is not much different from a 15 or 16,we know too little about math,we never get the chance to delve into math in depth and fully saviour it.No doubt,math in SAM is not as easy as you perceive(especially outsiders,take note plzz before commenting anything)作业和考试题目常常出得很奇妙,weird weird酱，examiners really enjoy trying to be funny with us(and they succeeded in doing so especially in spec math)。但是不管题目出得怎样厉害，怎样把我们屠杀得惨惨，学得少就是学得少，再怎样还是肤浅了点，zz....Wana say me chuin,lansi,go ahead.

老实说我的数学真的不怎么样，认识我的人就知道我还算平庸（或许比平庸高那么一丁点），校内考试分数证实不了什么，要明白一个concept要花比别人长3倍（或更多）的时间，还曾经在数学比赛中输得落花流水（不只一次），好像还很自豪酱哈哈...但我就是对它比较情有独钟，就是执着，不能容忍囫囵吞枣或‘为了考试而去做’的态度在它的范围里出现，可是我一再地被课程因素失望，真的很sienzz

在想，以现在的数学程度，还想问鼎精算系，要跟世界各地的pro kaki争饭碗，hehe,goodness knows my chances of survivability~~